I felt so horrible yesterday... I had a FULL THROTTLE yesterday morning, and by the afternoon, I felt like I had fallen from an insane high... Maybe because I had not done that In a long time. But today, I feel a bit better because I will Be going down to my hometown for a festival called Sha'lak'o. I have not missed a one for about five years, and I will not break the spirit!! Plus it will be my last payday as a YCC worker fot the 2008 year. I must go now, as the bell is close to ringing. Farewell for the time being, my little friends who think they know me...
Okay. So ... Today I feel a bit agitated. Nobody has really bothered me, but it's just one of those feel-like-shit days that seem to never end. People are saying that I should stay at this school. No thanks. I want to go back and make progress. But I will miss everyone that considers me a friend...
I am not going to be writing for about a week. There is a thanksgiving Break and I don't think I will have access to a computer. Um... But just know that I do not think I will enjoy this long absence any more than you. I will write about my break after I get back. Farewell for now...
Today I am glad that Thomas-kun is back in school. Now the agony of these morons is less painful to go through. I hate people that shadow me. Freshmen, especially. They annoy me more than preppy girls who only have time to go do social things and laugh about people like me- we have more better things to do than talk about what's pointless in the world. Marv is still not talking to me, but oh well. Fausto has yet another girlfriend. (not me, of course) (teardrop) And tomarrow is a half-day, so I will sign off as the possible last entry. To anyone who might feel sorry for me that I have such hatred for humanity, don't you dare be a hypocrite and say you agree with me. It bothers me that you take the time to read my thoughts...
I hate all of you people that have all the luck in the world, and that look down on people like me. How fuckin' dare you say that I will always be lonely forever. I guess if it is my fate, then so be it.I just hope you will see very soon what pathetic actors you all are. It must be nice to say that you have someone by your side to think about you. To care about you. YOU MAKE ME SICK. To be as lifeless as you seems so pointless now. I admit it. I never had a significant other in my life before, and I don't plan on having one now. Nobody like me. I have friends, but we can only go so far. But don't you dare feel sorry for me. If any other way, I feel sorry for you.
hahaha I like this pic. Very cute. Well, anyway, I had an oppritunity to go to the cherished anime club that I religiously go to every week. I am in such a happy mood. I know uit's only temporary, but at least I can make the most out of this happy emotion...
I'm really thinking about the anger I feel for my friends. I feel like they're ignoring me deliberately... Am I just being paranoid? Anyway, I have other stresses in my life... I lost my YEN+PLUS manga. And today is Hunter's Birthday. Happy Birthday. Well... Farewell.
I can say that I hate the girls beside me. "OMG did you hear what he/she said?!" grr.... just shut up and go back to your wannabe Barbie Hotel, you spoiled, preppy skank-whore FUCK FACED BITCHES!!!!! (silent) There's an anime club going on every Tuesdauys and Thursdays. Nice. I think I will go there tomarrow. I must go now. Bye.
I can't really say that I despise it. Only that I wish that it had no form of dancing whatsoever. Oh. btw I am not going to the homecoming dance this year. In fact. I have never gone to it at all. Maybe next year, whan I have trimmed down a bit. Because.. I have to admit, I am quite...round. Not really round, but I guess it wouldn't kill me to lose a few pounds. It bothers me that I have a weight set in my house, and I hardly ever use it. I enjoy lifting weights, but I don't think I'll be in any competitions anytime soon. I just lift to tone my arms.. Anyway... i might do the homecoming Game.. just not the dance. BTW I am typing in blue because it the Junior class color. I am a junior, and I want to at least not feel left out in the class as a whole...
My Greetings and love to all who read this.
Well. I Can't say that I am indeed happy. Not from what happened this weekend. First off, I would like to apologize for my whining, but I have nobody else to talk to. All my other friends are in class. Anyway... I am sore from work. they made us shovel gravel along an eight'Wide path down about a quarter mile for eight hours. Oh well. I need the intense exercise. Then. My mom got in a fight with my stepdad. Some things happened, and now he's in jail for Domestic Violence and possession of 2 bags of cocaine..... ugh. Sometimes, I have no idea how I am realted to all this mess. At least there's the warm embrace of Fausto and comforting words of Marvin... along with the interesting words of some people that would probably remain annonymous. In any case, even random people deserve respect. I am going to go now. Hopefully, my life will get better with each passing moment...
He introduced me to her today. I ditched fourth hour to go see my friend. She's nice, but didn't really talk to me. Who would, in a group of your own kind? I mean, I was the only junior in that clique... oh well. As long as someone talks to me, I'll be okay... Well, I better go now, for I am somewhat happy, but at the same time, I am a bit... distant. Good day to you all. Oh. Before I forget. Any advice from anyone on getting two more lip piercings?? I already have three, but I am thinking about getting two more on the corners of my mouth...
Who are we but to succumb to love's poison arrow? I'm one to say Love is for children and Fools, but now I have fallen to the sweet but sad call of a rather Interesting fellow. He wants me to go with him and his new gf to see... a movie. But I don't tag along. Plus, I've already seen the movie... Once is enough for me.So... Can I defeat this demanding emotion?
... I need a bf/gf... I don't mean like... to have to fool around with, no. I mean that in the nicest way possible. It's just... I have, ... aw, fuck it. I don't like anyone cuz they're way too much of a pervert to say anything nice... Anyway, I hate this school for making me so lonely. The only lust I seem to fufill is my passion in Art and ... yeah, mostly art. I am sorta sad because I have not yet seen a damn episode of Bleach within two friggin weeks. Well, I have myself to blame for that blunder. I have been doing meaningless tasks like homework, chores. ETC. Well, I have somewhere else to act like an idiot. I depart on these words... EGADS!! lol Nathan, if ur reading this... HIII!!!
Hm...I have nothing really to say except that I absolutely hate the people at my beloved Gallup High. I hate the way everyone is trying to compete with each other on who is the slowest in the halls. I hate the ratty-ass teachers who keep bitchin' about the damn jackets in the classrooms. I mean, turn the heat up in there, so we won't have to wear the damn jackets! UGH!!! And all the stupid little freshmen and fake little sophomores are really starting to piss me off. Just because they might have seen some REAL emos post awesome pix on the internet, they simply HAVE to get that same hairstyle. Stupid little FAKES!!! ... I just need some place to vent, and I think this website is my only source of comfort, other than my 4 really good friends, Marvin, Fausto, Valerie, and Alex... btw good afternoon, guys. Um... other than those "people" going slower than f--k in the halls, it's also the dirty-ass couples in there, as well. Get a freakin' room! I mean, even though I'm single ( and loving it, thanx) Some couples you just want to strangle with your own two hands. And if you know where I'm coming from, you'll like the idea of throwing them off the second floor roof. (hahaha) Well, I have somewhere I want to be. I send greetings to all the people I don't hate yet. BYE
UMMM....maybe I have been too hardcore for some of my readers, but this is the way I am. I can't stand the thought of someone criticizing (Forgive me if I spelled This wrong...) But yeah... I am rather antisocial.Well, I bid you farewell...
I'm in a children's Library doing some major typing, as I only have a limited time on these Computers... Any ways, if anyone wants to say ANYTHING at all, I'd really appreciate a voice from the eternal darkness that I've been suggested to. =( Sending Happy thoughts to Brian, Nathan, Marvin, and everyone else, I bid you farewell.(for now,at least)
Can't talk much now but I hate this class!! (I'm in 5th Bio) Farewell to you all for a while, for I will probaly get a job to occupy myself with during the summer...
Okay, this weekend really sucked for me. Frist off, I couldn't go to Taos to console my dearly beloved cousins. (Their Father Died) (But I wasn't really fond of him) ANyways, and to make things BETTER, some guy saying he knew my dead grandpa spent the night at my house. WTH!? Ugh!! As if I didn't understand the reasons of my guardians already, the one thing to get you to spend the night with us?? Beer. (ugh) I so cannot wait to get that damn job and finally get out of that deathtrap they call a home. Honestly, is not drinking alchohol such a hard thing to do? Espscially when you have kids that are so impressionable?! No, I'm not saying that I, myself have kids; I'm barely old enough to drive, and I think that younger poeple than me having children... is sorta wrong. I mean, don't you kids know how to protect yourselves? IDK, That's just gross...
okay, there was an error in the last post... so you're stuck with a leftover thought from the depths of my empty, antisocial mind. Hope you enjoy this as much as you enjoy scraping gum off your beat up Converse.lol
